Anyone who knows me, knows that I can be a "little" uptight (I can hear my husband laughing about the use of "little" right now). However, I was raised to be determined and focused, which can look like uptight behavior.
While parenting Jackson, it was initially easy to maintain determination and focus. Essentially, he did exactly what I wanted him to do. He potty-trained easily, went to bed without a whimper, and was the model child in public situations. Life was easy, and I continued on the path of having things exactly the way I wanted them to be.
And, then came Scout... Nothing with Scout is easy (if you know Scout, this is not a lie or an exaggeration of the truth). Scout, who is almost three, still wears pull-ups, rarely ever naps, and is a, dare I say, bully at daycare. Life with Scout is NOT easy, and I can not continue on the path of having things exactly the way I want them to be.
However, this post is not about praising Jackson and belittling Scout. I love my children equally (sometimes?). This post is actually an apology. Recently, more often than not, I am short tempered with my children, which is not fair to them. I need to let go of having things the way I want them to be or expect them to be. Accidents and unplanned events occur on a daily basis. If I don't start to embrace them and adjust, I will continue to miss out on life (and make my family miserable ☹).
I love you Scoutie and Jackson!
|Jackson & Scout returning home from a recent weekend trip.|
|A girl after my own heart.|
|As daring as ever!|